this is the darkest indigo, the worst of all nights. I feel myself drifting about, an apparition on a thousand soggy feet. I wish I was somehow attached to the ground im standing on. darkness damns me into smaller rooms. this lack of familiarity feels so familiar, a rowboat on a grey decaying sea. meaningful images flinch when sunlight arrives, it's just too blistering for their feeble eyes. endearing rivers don't travel along the path you want them to. it could leave you shuddering like a haunted cove with only a seal pleading for God to set him straight. the sound of a washing machine is the only thing that calms dying ears, its rumination slow, slow, slow. peel the eel and let it rot. over summer it'll sour to perfection and you can compost it by throwing it into the sea, just don't let the salt out.

pressure phosphenes are my primal scene. in a crowd I just want to give up. I can't tell the difference. which of these people am I, which direction am I going? a breeze could come at any time and find me, that I am completely invisible after all. an empty vessel for a blank visage. sublimation for a cheap facade. I was drowning in a mirage and though it was all just sand, the world only seemed to condensate as it slipped through my fingers.

wisps of gamber's eyes spiral through the air and fall on dead ears. cochlea slimier than a casino.

there is a closeness to the moon that I don't think anyone should assume. Take it once. Take it twice. Take it three times, but never four. That would be too much for a shallow crater to handle, though swallows are not nearly as beautiful as nightingales. Producing dust does not seem to be too much of a task, but I could never do it, or even so much as try. I won't get ahead of myself. it might be very difficult. We pay premium even though we don't know how it feels to make it, we'll never know, though it might feel quite good, it might be the only thing that does

How much of me has to foul before I'm considered diseased overall? Sunlight reeks of rotting memories. I wonder if the sky will ever empty and rain.